another closed chapter

this is our third date. i could say that we are doing good based on my dating history. the first date - dinner and then coffee was memorable. we never ran out of things to talk about and we genuinely laughed at each others jokes. the second date - we went to church to celebrate mass. fortunately were not struck by lightning or got swallowed by a fissure materializing beneath our feet so i think it was a good sign. and then we haven't done it, you know, sex, so it is a plus. so far so good.

there you are waving at me. five minutes late is forgivable. even if you are late for thirty minutes and i am already losing centimeters of patience, it will be okay once i see you smile. your smile is my weakness. i bet you already know that.

i am no reader of minds but i could sense there is something off with you. since we are both starving i just brushed the nagging feeling that i have thinking it will go away after dinner. the pasta and chicken are perfect but not a single compliment from you. no anecdote of your inefficient office mate or the irritating people riding the mrt. not a single joke nor a witty comment. you are oddly silent. i wonder if you are just a doppelganger. the negative feeling did not dissipate during the meal. i decided that i have to bring it up over coffee.

you remind me of a student of mine who was very silent in class. he did not have close friends and he eats his lunch alone. i tried my very best to motivate him but he was not interested enough. one afternoon after dismissal i talked to him. i said that if ever he has any problem, he should not hesitate to approach me for i am all ears to my children. a week after he opened up and told me everything about the turmoil that was going on in their house.

i know you want to tell me something but you are just afraid that i won't understand you. try me.

it never occurred to me that you are too good to be true. i am thanking my lucky stars that after two years of being single, finally i met you. i told myself maybe i do deserve someone like you. i smiled straight to my ears when you said that you like me. now i guess you really are too good to be true.

i will not ask why you chose me. let's say it just happened. that i am a random guy picked out of a population for testing. you just wanted a taste of freedom. too bad you did not expect that you will like me as well. now you are having second thoughts if you will stay with your current partner. it so happened that your relationship is on shaky ground.

of course i will not punch you even if you tell me that i am free to do so. i am not a fan of making scenes. i accept your apology even though it hurts. if you will stay with your partner or leave him, it is up to you. it is just sad that it is over between us. i will leave you now so you will have time to ponder on things.

i know there is a reason why i met you, i just do not know it at the moment. it will come to me if ever our paths will cross again in the future. for now, you are but another closed chapter in my book.