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it has been a week then since i told him that i will no longer keep in touch without explaining why. it was crystal clear that it was not working for the both of us. we only saw each other once this month. last month it was the same. he never answered my calls. the frequency of getting a reply from him was very low may it be sms or via fb. during those rare times when he replied, i never failed to thank my lucky stars because usually he would reply after a day or two.



perhaps there is such a thing as snail sms or snail e-mail after all.

i would have never expected any effort from him if he did not tell me that he likes me and that he was willing to give it a try. a fault of mine was that i did not turn down his invitation to drop by his place after our second date. we would have done it eventually but to do it on the second date was too early for me. i guess i was that desperate it has been awhile since i made such a connection with someone.

so after four dates in a span of three months and replies countable with my fingers and toes, i decided to let him go and move on. though i always say that effort could never be quantified, i was thinking that i deserved better. maybe not necessarily more but better.

to facilitate the moving-on process, i deleted his number from my phonebook. i was not able to "unfriend" him yet in fb but i was able to restrain myself from sending him a message. seven days passed without any attempt to contact him so i congratulated myself for my self-control.

a day after, i found myself on my way to makati at one in the morning.

fives times he pleaded that i come over. seven times he texted with a sad emoticon. he was to leave for singapore in the afternoon due to his work. he will be there for three weeks so he wanted me to stay with him for the night because he did not want to be alone.

i was at shaw boulevard when my neurons shouted how pathetic i was.

he knew my weakness so he cooked pasta and hugged me while we ate. we kissed and cuddled after the after-midnight snack. his ridiculous attempt at being cute made me laugh which made my neurons shout louder. we slept at five in the morning.

waking up we both found ourselves still naked late for work so we made haste with breakfast. before we parted ways he told me that he will see me immediately after his trip. i smiled and told him to take care.

the waiting continues. if not for him then for someone else.