for juan

when i look up above
the clear night sky
tiny diamonds scattered
small gaps displaying
the light of heaven

i wonder if ever
you peek into them
and so they glimmer
i ponder if ever
they hear my whisper
and tell it to you
i hope you hear
every prayer i say

they always tell me
you are just here
you never left
sometimes i feel
that you are just near
or here beside me
then i am all right

but when i see her
calling out your name
looking for you
when i see her cry
missing you

when i hug her

when i comfort her

when we pray

i know

i am reminded
it is not the same
it is just not the same